Take me…
le 18 avril 2008
03:32 / Marikina, Philippines
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I feel empty again. Few minutes ago I felt like nothing can touch me, and nothing can defeat me. But look at me now, moments before Mr. Sandman would fetch me, I’m wanting death to take me now.
What the hell is wrong with me.
I hate this. I hate myself.
I want to disappear, I mean, I already disappeared. They don’t know what the hell is happening to me now. They have not the slightest idea of my activities.
Take me.
I want to be blown away to a far away land and my memories would be tabula rasa. I don’t want to have any recollection of the shit that happened to me.
I’m right in saying that the moment it started, it was already meant to end.
I AM NOT MEANT TO BE HAPPY THAT WAY.
Just let them fall. And then I die.
Take me.
xoxo
Bry Dee
About
Bry - 23 y/o Marikina, Philippines
- took up Euro Languages from that school in Diliman (French major, Italian minor)
- works as a research analyst (language specialist-French)
- daltonien ( I see colors okay but just don’t make me name them)
- ne peut pas prononcer bien la lettre “r”
- terribly afraid of snakes
- loves NatGeo a lot
- has the most DRASTIC MOOD SWINGS in las islas Filipinas, fluctuates like hell
- enjoys conceptualizing/takings videos and photos… I love very visual stuff
- executed some of them
- interested to study fashion and would love to really make serious stride for it
- ogles at authentic designer bags lately
- stupid, hopeless romantic
- arrogant and proud (and I hate being like this)
- but very vulnerable during the troughs
- nowhere near perfect
- certain disregard for the word signifying future tense in English
- ka-weirdohan
… I created this to keep track of all my thoughts (even the most trivial) because I want to make sure on something. I’m gonna try my best to be as honest as possible in writing and I’ll restrain myself from mentioning names. This is the only online account I manage because I’ve already neglected my other accounts in other platforms to start anew (supposedly). Bear with my babbling and bitching and all that since I’m trying to make sense out of what I’m feeling and thinking… Staying true maybe is the key
I hope they would make sense… finally…
I don’t know if anyone out there who knows me would be reading things written here… not that I don’t care but I can’t stop you. The fact that I chose to have them capable of being viewed publicly might speak aloud of my intentions, but not saying it is not confirming it. Je veux avoir la paix.
xoxo
Bry Dee
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